The first time i really fell in love was in kindergarten. He was my first and last boyfriend so far. his name is Danilo and i adored and worshiped him. I was spending all my time with him, and my best friend at time was dying of jealousy because of that. My mom even tried to get me to cool of a bit and told me that it's maybe a time to find somebody else. I didn't want to do that. I told her that when you fall in love it's for life. I really thought that at the time.
My heart wants to believe it's true, that at one moment you really fall in love with someone and you'll do and be anything for that person. My head is always saying that such things can't happen. My head thinks it's just hormones and wanting something from that person and it passes. Either way, I'm sure it's not for life. I might say that i'm in love with idea of love, but i would like that to happen to me one day. Until that day comes, my list of guys will keep growing and I'll keep writing about them.
So, to get back to my kindergarten boyfriend, we got separated one year before we started going to school (here we start going to school at age of 7). I was devastated, but i was just little girl (six or five yrs old), soon i forgot all about him. 12 or 13 yrs later, i found him on facebook. He wears air-max sneakers (which is horrible here in Serbia) and he is a typical macho guy who thinks he owns the world. And he's loaded. The worst thing is that i could be with him if i wanted (I've been with hundreds of guys like him so i know how i could get him if i wanted to) and spend some of his dads money, but his not right for me. I just don't want to waste my time when i can be available for (maybe) the perfect guy for me. That's the worst thing because it proves that i'm not gonna love him forever. I don't even like him now. And that makes me feel sad. But i hope that it counts as kiddy love not real love.....
And now I'm typing to much. I really didn't know i had so many stuff to say. And this is just about a boy I can't even remember from when we were kids. I'm gonna stop boring you now.
Who was your first love?
Bye ^_^
My heart wants to believe it's true, that at one moment you really fall in love with someone and you'll do and be anything for that person. My head is always saying that such things can't happen. My head thinks it's just hormones and wanting something from that person and it passes. Either way, I'm sure it's not for life. I might say that i'm in love with idea of love, but i would like that to happen to me one day. Until that day comes, my list of guys will keep growing and I'll keep writing about them.
So, to get back to my kindergarten boyfriend, we got separated one year before we started going to school (here we start going to school at age of 7). I was devastated, but i was just little girl (six or five yrs old), soon i forgot all about him. 12 or 13 yrs later, i found him on facebook. He wears air-max sneakers (which is horrible here in Serbia) and he is a typical macho guy who thinks he owns the world. And he's loaded. The worst thing is that i could be with him if i wanted (I've been with hundreds of guys like him so i know how i could get him if i wanted to) and spend some of his dads money, but his not right for me. I just don't want to waste my time when i can be available for (maybe) the perfect guy for me. That's the worst thing because it proves that i'm not gonna love him forever. I don't even like him now. And that makes me feel sad. But i hope that it counts as kiddy love not real love.....
And now I'm typing to much. I really didn't know i had so many stuff to say. And this is just about a boy I can't even remember from when we were kids. I'm gonna stop boring you now.
Who was your first love?
Bye ^_^
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